[fat/poc goth with bleached hair wearing purple lipstick]
The “traditional” ideal of the scene as the pale-faced, black-clad individual definitely never applied to me, but because of my instant and deep connection and attraction to the music and atmosphere of the scene I had to set that aside. I always felt that I was not perceived to be as attractive, as beautiful or even as “goth” as girls who were paler than me. I never attracted many suitors and I reconciled myself to never being able to approach the “gothic ideal of beauty” very early on, although I felt within myself that my personal way of being “goth” was very sincere and creative and very much true to what “goth” was all about. The one part of the scene that obviously made me uncomfortable was the military/Nazi/Aryan faction of it, although I understand that for many of those people it was a fetish or history obsession type of thing, and not necessarily based in racism.
Many of the aesthetics of goth culture are taken from my cultural heritage (Asian/East Indian/Middle Eastern, African/Egyptian/Voodoo/Haitian-Caribbean) so I still felt and feel strongly that my connection to it is natural and instinctive and powerful. It was achingly difficult to be a minority within the subculture I deeply loved because it’s within these that we find acceptance and understanding where the larger society rejects us. I was a loner within the scene just as I was in society. I found a personal solace and creative outlet, but I never found the community I was searching for. I am overjoyed to finally see our subcultures mirroring the multicultural quality of our world, and so glad to see the younger generations of subcultures finding and creating communities to connect with and support one another.
Asha Beta, a sculptor, jewelry designer, and musician living in Arizon, discusses being a woman of color in the Goth community. The article she is interviewed by focuses on People of Color goths.
Really good stuff.
If anyone ever tries to tell you that goth is for white people only, let them know they are wrong. So very, very wrong.
[Pictures of a very short, white passing, trans, disabled goth queer with bleached hair and green eyes dressed in a dapper sort of fashion. They’re wearing collared shirts, suspenders, and jewelry, including silver rings, an earring and a rosary. In some pictures are wearing black lipstick and eyeliner. In the last picture, they are wearing a double breasted pea coat.]
[image: two pictures of a person of color. one of them in a wig and lacy top and the other of them with no wig and wearing a blazer]
Just Prava, Genderfun Goth.